this one reminds me of you too much.

and thats never a good thing.

Your always the one I lean to.
And I adore you for that.

I haven’t thought about him awhile until last morning. Its crazy how someone can extend so much love towards you, and then pull back without saying goodbye. I don’t think I’ve ever been screwed over so hard in my life, no matter how perverted that sounds haha. I guess it’s the people that mean the most to you, that have the advantage to hurt you the most in life. I don’t know what happened, but it happened and there’s nothing I can do but to sit back. No matter what he’ll always be my first love, and the guy I trusted the most. I sat on a fucking smelly train without food for three days to see him. And I guess I’m pissed that he was a douchebag and broke up with me by changing his facebook status to single, when he was supposed to call me that day and talk things over. Nick likes Kylie again. It’s kind of cute. He deserves her.

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don’t care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I’m doin’ my thing
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my road I’m screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets

And I’m making ramen noodles:)

I’m dying my hair a blackish blue. I’ll post pics up tomorrow.

I have in in the shittest moods these days and I don’t know why. I’m trying to figure myself out little by little, and so far I’m failing miserably. I’ve been at Ryans house a lot. And I admit I’ve been a complete bitch. He’s been having people over a lot. And they do there thing, blah blah video games. But yet for the past two weeks, the time we spend together is pointless. So sue me for getting tired, its whatever. I want to just break away with everything right now, and have time to myself for a bit. I’m pretty sure the only place that I will feel most wanted is at a movie theater. And thats kind of sad.

In a good way.

I think it’s kind of sad that I got pissed off enough to write another one. I’ve come to realize I have a pretty shitty boyfriend. I mean he says that he tries to balance things out between me and his friends. But yet hes so much happier when their there, so I let him. And it’s gotten to the point where I want to leave him. He barely kisses me as much as I want him to, and these days I just hear ‘I love you too’s”. As the days past I start thinking about Nick again, then I just get really pissed, because I shouldnt have to. I think I’m preparing myself now, for the heart break ahead, when I do leave him. A few days of sorrow will be better for me in the long run. All in all, I’m done with this shit.

So I was recently thinking about adopting a dog from a shelter, because Id much rather save a dog then to let it die. I looked up several shelters from all over Michigan, wrote down a few, and looked up reviews on each one. One of the reviews on the shelter closest to me really pissed me off. The worst part is that this is a former employee:

“It’s true what he said about the euthanasia. I saw it with my own eyes. The cat story is especially true as well, if the cat is pregnant and has her kittens, both are euthanized before they ever get to know one another. The same is true about pregnant dogs, they let the mother have her pups, then euthanize her and the pups a week later. It’s very disheartening.

As for dogs/cats, the person at the front desk can usually tell (when you are surrendering a dog/cat) weather it has a good chance of being euthanized or not. But I’m sure they wont tell you that. They will smile and say yes, so you will leave.
The horses, sheep, goats, chicken, ducks, and birds shouldn’t be there at all. This place is ill equipped to take care of them in the proper manner needed for their survival.
Please think twice when you take the pet you love and admire most in the world there to be put to sleep or surrendered. This place is a black hole of death and mass euthanasia is involved. Take them somewhere respectable… a rescue group to be surrendered or the vet to be put to sleep. You will feel better about it in the long run.”

I mean, as a big animal lover, this shit is sick to me. It makes me want to spray paint all over the building.

Which I probably will do.